Sunday, October 25, 2009

Of med sch books and green-eyed monster

I bid a teary farewell to all my medical school books. I thought that perhaps Shamir who is preparing for his MCAT exams could use some good literature and prep books that I "lugged" back from the USA. When I was going through the books, my heart felt heavy. I looked at my scribblings, my notes, my mind maps, my flash cards etc. Gosh, I did put in so much effort for med school. Alas, I was disappointed when I was rejected last year and this year, my morale is so low that I'm not confident of acceptance. Parting with my books was very painful. I must really want to study medicine...

My heavy grew heavier with the low morale and throbbing headaches. The green-eyed monster emerged. I couldn't understand why I felt so jealous of this woman who suddenly appeared and seemed rather friendly with a certain someone. How could I feel this way? I'm just a "fool to want you" when you don't seem to like me. God, pls grant me patience, guidance and strength. This old soul needs to take her worn heart far away...

Friday, October 09, 2009

About love and lovers

The minute I heard my first love story I started looking for you, not knowing how blind that was.
Lovers don’t finally meet somewhere.
They’re in each other all along.

~ Rumi

Sunday, October 04, 2009

Purnama 2

My short film 'Potong Andam' will be screened at the Singapore Malay Film Society's Purnama 2.

Date: 12 October 2009 (Monday)
Time: 7.30 pm (seats are available on first come first served basis)
Venue: The Substation Theatre (there's a min $2 donation to the Substation at the door)
Programme: Screening of 5 short films + Q & A session

*Note: It's a R21 session and there'll be ushers at the entrance to check IDs.

Bohemian night

I don't know why I was feeling blue and negative last night. Perhaps it was the gum surgery I went through on Thursday and the painkillers didn't help much... or the medical school applications staring at me, their preferred MCAT scores sticking out in BOLD or ...

So Erzwin & I hung out, watching 'Boiler Room' and strumming the guitar. Amidst trying to rationalise and making sense of things, we sung our favourite Mat Maintain songs. How I wish I had learned the violin then...

As per Guns N' Roses, "don't you cry tonight, there's a heaven above you..." Perhaps it's time the world sees a cold, un-emo Hidayah...